Reviewed by Dan
TITLE: Finding A Tomorrow
AUTHOR: Kathleen Kerridge
PUBLISHER: Emma Stedall
LENGTH: 164 Pages
RELEASE DATE: January 3, 2017
Rami doesn’t see himself as a survivor. He doesn’t want to be one, either. At his lowest point, with everything he cared for lost forever, he knows there’s only one way out. Rami is one of life’s planners and he plans his death to the last small detail. It’s no cry for help; he means to die.
Waking up on a hospital ward, Rami is devastated that he failed. It’s impossible that he isn’t dead, but the ache in his chest from being resuscitated and the bleeps of the monitors tracking his heartbeat say otherwise. And there’s the quiet friendly stranger at his bedside who, for some reason, isn’t prepared to let Rami be alone.
Hospitals, drugs and therapy lead Rami slowly towards a path where he begins to see a glimmer of a future, despite the darkness in the corners of his mind and the shadows that haunt him. Despite everything life might throw at him, Rami begins to believe that he has a future, and can find his tomorrow.
What a phenomenal book.
I had absolutely no idea what this book was about going into it. I love the author’s writing and have very much enjoyed her fantasy series. She had warned that this one was much different, but I chose not to read the blurb before I read the story, as always, because I hate spoilers.
I thoroughly enjoyed the read. I’m going to start by saying this was a very dark book. When we first meet Rami, he has left his home meticulously clean so that no one will have to deal with a mess when he is gone. He has rented a small run down room in a bad part of town where he proceeds to overdose on over-the-counter drugs and whiskey. He wants to end it all. Something horrific has happened and he feels he would be better off dead.
But he wakes up in the hospital. It was all for nothing. Some obtrusive bastard called the police and ambulance and saved his life. Interfering jerk. Then there is this man who keeps hanging around. His name is Ryan and he was at the hospital seeing someone who died. But why would he want to spend so much time visiting Rami? When Rami is transferred to a mental health facility because of the suicide attempt and his depression, Ryan still comes every couple days and visits him. Who is this guy? Rami doesn’t dare to ask and risk him not coming any longer.
I loved this story. As I said above, it is quite dark. Along the way through the story there is despair, attempted suicide, mental illness, some details of the horrific event I mentioned above…which included some severe man on man domestic abuse, and there is a major health crisis.
I very highly recommend this one. I enjoyed the despair and the hope. No further spoilers. I recommend you pick it up. Be prepared, it isn’t all sweetness and light…but there just might be a light in the darkness…