Welcome to author Alexis Hall joining us today in honor of his newest release “Pansies”
Love Bytes had the honor to ask author Alexis Hall some extended questions on his new release , we hope you enjoy it as much as we did! š
Alexis, congratulations on the release of āPansiesā. I found it a very emotive and layered novel and a joy to read. It is rare to love both MCs equally, especially in a character-driven piece like this, but I genuinely did. So –
1) Letās start the questions gently ā Why is this novel listed as in the āSpires seriesā, as South Shields is quite different from the dreaming spires of Oxford?
Thatās actually a really good question. And one with several quite complicated answers. Basically, right from when I started to get into writing I had an ambitious but slightly nebulous idea for a set of linked stories that would have thematic similarities and take place in a shared world with overlapping characters. At the time, however, I knew very little about the mechanics of actually getting a series picked up and marketed as a series so I just sort of ⦠figured it would somehow come together. Which was ridiculously naĆÆve of me.
So essentially what happened was Glitterland came out, and was retrospectively branded as part of Spires when Waiting for the Flood and For Real were published. And, while I knew not all of the books were set in Oxford (Glitterland, for example, is set in Brighton, London and Cambridge) I did know that most of them had an Oxford connection, and I liked the ideas evoked by Spires as a name ⦠so I wound up calling it Spires, essentially because it sounded better than āAlexis Hallās Series Of Thematically Connected Stories In Which Characters Will Eventually Start To Overlap Somewhere Down the Line.ā
The problem is, due to various factors, Iāve not managed to get to Somewhere Down The Line yet. For people who are connection-spotting, Fenās ex-boyfriend is Niallās current boyfriend (and, if I ever get to write that book, a significant proportion of it would take place in South Shields, at Alfie and Fenās weddingāspoiler for future events of imaginary people) and thereās a loose group of trendy London sorts who overlap across all the books. Basically, I started with quite a specific plan for Spires, which I quickly edited down āwhatever wound up happening.ā
I do think that Pansies still feels like a Spires book but, obviously, thatās mostly a call for readers to make. Most of books in the series are quite different anywayāeven the ones that have explicit Oxford connections.
2) I loved the way that South Shields seems to become a more beautiful place as Alfie starts to fall in love with Fen, even though Fenās experiences of life there are far more painful and dark. Did you intend to create this paradox from the beginning or did it develop as you were writing?
Short answer: yes, that was kind of a deliberate thing, and Iām glad it came across okay.
Long answer: I think the thing about writing, like most practiced skills is that you develop a whole set of techniques and strategies and make a whole lot of choices without consciously articulating to yourself what they are or why youāre making them. For example, when I wrote For Real I put Tobyās chapters in first person present and Laurieās in first person past and I didnāt, at any point, sit down and say to myself ātell you what, Alexis, since Toby is young and lives in the moment, why you donāt put all his chapters in present tense and since Laurie is older and, in many ways, lives in the past, why donāt you write all of his chapters in past tense?ā But clearly that was what I going for there.
So basically I definitely wanted the charactersā relationship to South Shields to change alongside their relationship with each other. But I didnāt sort of consciously plan how I would do that.
3) My first reading of Pansies, and I canāt wait to read it again, left me feeling that this novel was as much about the MCs relationships with their parents, as their love story. Did you decide on the parentsā role in the novel before you plotted Alfie and Fenās love story or was it never that linear?
I think this is quite a hard question to answer because, for me, when Iām writing ⦠anything really, the story and the context of the story have to be simultaneous. Alfie and Fenās love story takes place between two people who live in a particular world and grew up in a particular world (which isnāt necessarily the world they now live in) and that whole set of conflicts and tensions and interactions is sort of what makes their romance have meaning. Without getting too āa man cannot step in the same river twiceā about things, Fen and Alfie wouldnāt be Fen and Alfie if Fen didnāt have a dead mother and Alfie didnāt have a homophobic father so theyād be different people and their story would be a different story.
4) Do you think you could have forgiven yourself in Alfieās place or indeed forgiven him if you were in Fenās?
The thing is, I think most of us have been at some point in our lives both Fen and Alfie, in that weāve all had shitty things done to us, and weāve all done shitty things.
And actually I have quite an ambivalent relationship with forgiveness. Perhaps itās because Iām an overeducated prick but there are a lot of concepts that our society (insofar as I can assume that I and everyone reading this come from the same society, which we obviously donāt) consider important that Iāve never quite got to grips with. Ironically, love is another one in that I think we make a lot of assumptions about what it is or what it means that I either question or actively reject. I guess Iām a pretty odd person to be a romance author, now I think about it.
For me, the thing about forgivenessālike loveāis that we have a tendency and, if I want to swim dangerously close to waters I wonāt be safe in, a probably on some level religiously derived tendency to view them as innately virtuous. I tend to think of them as very much morally neutral in that often both forgiving and desiring to be forgiving can be quite selfish things (as can loving and desiring to be loved). Forgiveness in particular is extremely hard to pin down, to the extent that I canāt think of a single time Iāve seen somebody satisfactorily articulate what it actually means to forgive anyone for anything. I mean, it obviously has specific meaning within theological notions of sin and repentance but if you cheat on me or murder my father and I forgive you for it ⦠what does that involve? It doesnāt mean I condone the original act and it probably doesnāt even mean Iāve stopped caring about it.
This is sort of consciously bathetic but the only way I can articulate to myself what it means to forgive someone is that it sort of means you decide youāre not going use the thing youāre forgiving them for as an excuse to be a dick. And, obviously, this is a very idiosyncratic way of looking at the idea but I think Iād rather avoid being a dick to people in general rather than avoid being a dick in ways that are motivated by specific feelings of resentment.
I think for me personally the closest Iāve ever got to forgiving anyone for anything is realising that Iāve reached a point in my life where I actually no longer care. And that feels different enough from what I perceive as the cultural notion of forgiveness that Iām not entirely comfortable calling it by the same name.
To actually bring this back to the actual book that this interview about ⦠Iām not sure I even think that Fen forgives Alfie in Pansies. Let me very quickly say that Iām happy to accept that you can read the book assuming that the process that Fen goes through is a process of forgiveness. But part of what I wanted to explore with the story was what it meant to come to terms with those feelings and experiences. And, for me, itās more about Fen reconciling his feelings for Alfie as he is now with his feelings for Alfie in the past than in anyone necessarily explicitly being forgiven for anything.
5) The title is excellent and I love the reasons for it that the book offers ā do you ever wish to reclaim that lovely word that is often used derogatorily?
I think as slurs go, pansy is in a slightly funny place in that, at least to me, it feels quite outdated and evocative of (and I donāt want to sound like Iām some kind of connoisseur here) a very specific flavour of homophobia. Itās specifically the slur that people (primarily men) who have a very specific view of masculinity use against men who they feel deviate from that norm. Itās odd in a way because itās sort of self-referentially derogative. As a homophobic slur its power comes from suggesting that a gay man is effeminate and therefore not a proper man. As a slur directed at a man who you perceive as weak or insufficiently masculine it derives its power from suggesting that an effeminate man is gay and therefore not a proper man. Slurs are so weird.
I think the word itself doesnāt have any particular resonance for meāalthough I do really like the flowers, with their quizzical little faces and their bright, shiny coloursābut I think, weirdly, the flower connection is part of the problem. I mean, this is really obvious slur etymology but the whole reason pansy is used to mean a gay or effeminate man is precisely because of the comparison with flower. In this sense, I donāt think itās like queer where reclaiming the term has a subversive power because the word itself almost literally means subversive. I can certainly imagine people who might want to reclaim pansy as a term but I think theyād have to be people who are keen to identify with tiny, brightly coloured flowers. And Iām not sure spirit plants are a thing? But if I had to pick a spirit plant Iām pretty sure it wouldnāt be a pansy.
6) Alexis, you are well known for writing in many sub-genres ā from lesbian vampire detectives to dashing gender-queer sky captains and mute mermen ā do you have a favourite romance genre to write in, or maybe a different genre altogether you would like to attempt?
Iām not particularly keen to get out of romance becauseādespite what I said earlier about not understanding itāI actually like writing about love. I think basically I like variety so I enjoy writing in multiple sub-genres. The realities of the market are such that Iāve put out a lot more contemps recently than I started of with and Iād really like to do something with more wizards, monsters or spaceships in it. Basically Iām just a flighty person and Iām always seeking opportunities to indulge that flightiness.
7) Authors often remark that their work is a form of catharsis for them, is that ever true for you and how does that manifest?
I think most authors have emotional relationships with their books, but they might not always be the emotional relationships youād expect. I think catharsis suggests quite as specific experience of writing and I donāt think itās necessarily reflective of how I approach my own work.
8) Personally, I think your eclectic back catalogue keeps your storytelling fresh, however, you have proved that you can write successful series with the outstanding Prosperity and associated stories, and Kate Kane. Are there any of your previous characters you would like to re-visit?
I would absolutely love to go back to the Kate Kane series and although thereās nothing on the horizon for it at the moment I might look at self-publishing at some point in the future. I definitely do have plans to finish off the series because her story isnāt anywhere near complete.
As for the Prosperityverse, I feel pretty much all of its major characters have complete arcs so there isnāt the same need to continue the series. I did have a slightly mad plan for a follow up where Captain England goes to Mars, and another volume of related shorts, but apart from a story from Milordās past with Black Jack Callahan they werenāt really focused on the original crew of Shadowless.
In general, Iām not that into re-visiting characters unless the characters were originally envisioned as part of an āuntil we all get boredā type series. I canāt decide if it sounds obvious or self-aggrandising but when I write a standalone novel about some people⦠then that novel generally contains everything I want to say about them. Itās partly why I ended up writing In Vino (the mini-story attached for For Real) about Jasper, rather than Toby or Laurie.
9) How has winning the RITA, for your novel For Real, changed your view of your writing and your aims regarding your writing career?
Wow, thatās kind of a big question. In a lot of ways, pragmatically, it hasnāt made much of a difference. I donāt keep very close tabs on these things but my sales are pretty much what theyāve always been and itās not like Iāve had publishers knocking down my door saying āweāre desperate to give you a ten book seriesā (if you are a publisher, and youād like to give me a ten book series, I am so there for that). Obviously itās affirming in a lot of ways but I think the problem with awards is that theyāre simultaneously really good at helping with imposter syndrome and really good at giving you massive imposter syndrome. So I think Iāve probably come out about the same insecurity wise.
I suspect it might be a bit of a bellwether for the status of m/m within the wider community in that two m/m novels won RITAs this year and that might be a sign that the genre as a whole is getting more mainstream traction, which might prove to be the rising tide that lifts all boats. But I think when it comes to real practical things, like who buys what books, itās such a mess of competing and conflicting factors and a chaos of butterfly wings that itās very hard to predict what any one event or change means for anyone.
Thank you, Alexis Hall, for your time and your gift as a storyteller.Ā Ā Ā
Thank you for having me!
(questions provided by B.J Jansen)
About Pansies
Alfie Bell is . . . fine. Heās got a six-figure salary, a penthouse in Canary Wharf, the car he swore heād buy when he was eighteen, and a bunch of fancy London friends.
Itās rough, though, going back to South Shields now that they all know heās a fully paid-up pansy. Itās the last place heās expecting to pull. But Fenās gorgeous, with his pink-tipped hair and hipster glasses, full of the sort of courage Alfieās never had. It should be a one-night thing, but Alfie hasn’t met anyone like Fen before.
Except he has. At school, when Alfie was everything he was supposed to be, and Fen was the stubborn little gay boy who wouldnāt keep his head down. And now itās a proper mess: Fen might have slept with Alfie, but heāll probably never forgive him, and Fenās got all this other stuff going on anyway, with his mam and her flower shop and the life he left down south.
Alfie just wants to make it right. But how can he, when all theyāve got in common is the nowhere town they both ran away from.
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About Alexis Hall
Alexis Hall was born in the early 1980s and still thinks the 21st century is the future. To this day, he feels cheated that he lived through a fin de siĆØcle but inexplicably failed to drink a single glass of absinthe, dance with a single courtesan, or stay in a single garret.
He did the Oxbridge thing sometime in the 2000s and failed to learn anything of substance. He has had many jobs, including ice cream maker, fortune teller, lab technician, and professional gambler. He was fired from most of them.
He can neither cook nor sing, but he can handle a 17th century smallsword, punts from the proper end, and knows how to hotwire a car.
He lives in southeast England, with no cats and no children, and fully intends to keep it that way.
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To celebrate the release ofĀ Pansies, one lucky winner will receive their choice of 3 ebooks from Alexis Hallās backlist. Leave a comment with your contact info to enter the contest. Entries close at midnight, Eastern time, on October 15, 2016. Contest is NOT restricted to U.S. entries. Thanks forĀ followingĀ the tour, andĀ donāt forget to leave your contact info!





Don’t laugh I thought Alexis was a ‘she’. Great interview and a great author. I finished Pansies and I was head over heels
Great interview, thank you! ^_^
I’m glad I read this interview before reading the book, because I think knowing your take on the concept of forgiveness will give it another layer for me. For something like 10 years the husband and I taught one of the marriage prep sessions at our church. Every two months or so, we’d sit down with half a dozen engaged couples and talk about the importance of forgiveness in a relationship, all framed in terms of church teachings. There’s a Madeline L’Engle quote we used, where she says something about (paraphrasing) I know God has allowed me to forgive when I poke at the sore places and they don’t hurt anymore, which sounds a lot like your “I reach a point where I actually no longer care”. As I disentangle myself from the church in general, it’s almost a relief to think that forgiveness doesn’t have to be a significant thing, that maybe I can just…move on.
Food for thought…
i Loved the interview. It will make the reading better.
Thanks for a lovely interview. I read Pansies, and it broke my heart then put it back together better than ever. The depth of emotion that Pansies stirred in me, well, all I can say is Alexis Hall tells a wonderful, wonderful story. <3
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Lovely interview! I loved PANSIES!
Wow, really awesome interview! Almost as awesome as Pansies š
Thanks for a great interview! I look forward to reading the book
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Thank you for the interview, Alexis. I do love your books.
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Thank you for the great interview! <3
Don’t laugh 2… I also thought Alexis was a ‘she’. I also loved Alexis’ books that I already read, and loved most For Real and Pansies. Sorry for my bad english, I am from Brazil so portuguese is my language. Also my prefered word is Saudade, a word that I neer found a equivalent in other languages and was good to read about it in Pansies. I wish someday this beautiful books could be translated to portuguese, so I can tell my friends to read it.
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Congrats on your new book and thanks for all those in-depth answers. I look forward to reading it. Like you in writing, I like to read across many different kinds of genre (but as long as it has a gay theme š
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I can’t be in a rainstorm without rereading waiting for the flood. Or at least talking about it. . . or thinking about it. Your ability to create a scene in my mind just blows my mind. I love your work. I wish I could handle reading bondage or s&m but it just makes me too uncomfortable. I am sad to miss For Real and Glitterland. I miss Kate Kane and Prosperity. You are a fabulous writer and I am so glad you are getting more mainstream attention.