Reviewed by Rhonda
TITLE: Always Have Always Will
AUTHOR: B.J. Sheppard
PUBLISHER: Wilde City Press
LENGTH: 90 pages
Imagine losing everything you ever loved in the blink of an eye. For Clayton Palmer, that terrible fate has just become a reality as he buries his lover, Gregg, after a brief and futile battle with cancer. Now, in the house in which they shared their love for all those years, Clay’s own life is slowly fading. In a war with his ailing body, Clay reminisces over the life they shared. Knowing time is running out, memories of their joy and sadness come to him; vignettes forming a road map back to the man he always loved; always has and always will.
Well boys and girls, if you want a good tear jerker this is the book to reach for. BJ Sheppard takes us on a journey with long time lovers Clayton and Greg as they face the pain and heartbreak of Greg’s diagnosis of a terminal cancer that will end his life in a month’s time and the turmoil of having to make preparations for Greg’s rapidly approaching death.
A month’s time is just not enough time to prepare yourself for living without someone when you have spent 20 years loving that one person that makes you complete. We make the journey with them in a series of letters written by Clayton to Greg and glimpses into the heartbreaking reality faced by Clay when he has to lay his lover to rest.
As the story unfolds we find that Clay has some very serious problems of his own resulting in Greg demanding to be taken home to Scotland to spend his remaining time with friends and family rather than face it alone when Clay starts pushing his lover away. I have to say it is a very accurate portrayal of what happens when a loved one dies, you will shed tears. I think the story really gets really dark when Clay finally returns home to the empty house he once called a home and we find ourselves wondering just what is going on with Clay as he starts breaking down leaving us to wonder if he is about to do something drastic and permanent. I would tell you more but I don’t want to give away the ending. I have to leave you something to look forward to! But I will say this, it was both heartbreaking and heartwarming. I recommend this book!