Reviewed by Racheal
TITLE: I Always Choose You
AUTHOR: Kimberly Nicole
PUBLISHER: JMS Books LLC
LENGTH: 214 pages
RELEASE DATE: July 25, 2020
BLURB: RaeAnne Hunter has two secrets: the first is she’s gay. The second is she wants to know what it’s like to smoke weed. While smoking with her friend Morgan, she meets a woman named Kenzie and the two soon form a relationship. Rae doesn’t tell her other friends about either her partying exploits or her new girlfriend. But she does start smoking weed with her brother Jacob, and the two call it Family Night.
Rae wants to go to college to become a doctor, but she decides to take a year off to party first. Kenzie turns out to be wilder than Rae expected, but Rae still loves her and wants things to work out. Meanwhile, Rae and Morgan become closer, and Morgan proposes that she and Rae start their own secret relationship. Rae thinks her current situation is perfect. She doesn’t want to get married any time soon, and she wants to experiment with both drugs and women. As her partying escalates beyond weed to include more drugs, and her time spent between Kenzie and Morgan becomes more complex, will Rae find she has taken on more than she can handle? When Jacob starts messing with even harder drugs, will Rae be able to influence him to be safer?
Rae’s thoughts become more confused on whether she likes Kenzie or Morgan best, but maybe living with them both will fulfill her wildest dreams.
REVIEW:
This is Author Kimberly Nicole’s first adult book however, she has written five LGBTQ under her other Author name Kim Flowers.
This storyline wasn’t like many that I have read this year. There wasn’t a lot of happy times and fairy tale endings. It was written with raw emotions, real life situations that happen to families everyday across the world. A lot of scenes were very uncomfortable to read, very descriptive in drug usage and horrible situations dealings with consequences of drug usage.
Situations of broken homes, teenagers living without consequences or structure in their family lives. With our main character Rae a lot of the people that she befriends are reckless and it made me wonder what exactly their family life’s were like cause not all were talked about.
It made me also realize that even though I came from a divorced up bringing I could have chosen the pathway these teenagers chosen. Drugs, drinking, partying, driving while intoxicated. As a mother I am glad that my kids chose not to go down these pathways as well.
As to her Rae’s sexuality, I can relate to her fear of coming out. Since I have witnessed it numerous times with family and friends. The fear of being rejected by her family cause of being brought up in the church. The experiencing is also not something that is uncommon especially in teenage or even college years for those that are realizing they either bisexual or gay.
However, at times I did feel Rae was heartless with how she cheated on her girlfriend with her best friend.
The continual drug usage got very tiresome even after the numerous overdoses she witnessed and the horrible death of someone she truly loved.
I was thrilled when she finally came out to her parents and lived her true live but wanting to go to school to become a doctor while only doing the “good drugs”, was the biggest issue I had with the ending.
In my opinion there is no good drug or save drug and going to school to become a doctor just didn’t seem to me like becoming a mature adult.
Otherwise, this was an emotional, raw, intense, and very could happen story.
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