Reviewed by Becca

TITLE: Waiting for Walker

AUTHOR: Robin Reardon

PUBLISHER: Smashwords

LENGTH: 308 pages

RELEASE DATE: June 23, 2017

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Micah Jeager’s life is a mess. His folks have split, and now he lives with his mother in the manager’s unit of a motel. His mother is seeing a medium to communicate with Micah’s older brother, killed in Afghanistan. He had to change schools for his junior year, which made him retreat further into himself, hiding behind his camera—and hiding that he’s gay.
One sunny day in June, as he’s shooting a dead seagull on the shore of Long Island Sound, a mysterious guy appears in a beautiful sailboat. At first, the guy’s boat shoes are the image that stays with Micah. But soon it’s the person himself, Walker Donnell, who haunts Micah’s dreams.
Walker’s life looks perfect to Micah. His wealthy parents adore him; he has everything he could want; he’s gorgeous and generous; and he falls hard for Micah. But he has a secret: Walker is intersex.
The closer Walker and Micah grow, the more Walker feels a need to be sure of himself in ways he hasn’t fully faced before, and now it’s his turn to retreat. Micah knows Walker is worth waiting for, so he waits. And waits.

REVIEW:

Dear heaven, this was one hell of a book. Wow. The story about an intersex relationship. Before anyone jumps down my throat, whatever any intersex person, trans, gay etc has to go through is unbelievably excruciating rough. Some, yes, have an easier time of transitioning, but for the most part it’s hard. But for those that TRULY love that person, sometimes it’s hard for them too. The relationships can be difficult. There’s fear, doubt, questions, and so much that goes on. And that’s just what I KNOW about. I could NEVER put myself in someone’s position to know how they feel because I’ve never been through it. I’ve never been through it with someone. I’ve had people come out to me first, and I loved them no matter what. But that’s still different. And this book shows what’s it’s like on both sides. Kinda on the loved ones side a bit more, but it’s a journey that both had to go through. And for the author not having known much about the subject, I think it was written very well. And if I’m wrong in any way, let me be the first to apologize. Also, I have to say for anyone who is intersex, and possibly reading this review, know that there are people who love you no matter what. Who don’t think of you any different than who you are. If anything, know that I may not know you, but I love you too.

Micah was on summer break from school. He doesn’t have any friends, and life just flat out sucks right now. He lost his brother in the war, his parents have divorced, he had to move, no one seems to be getting along real great and he’s hiding the fact he’s gay. All he has really is his camera. He hopes he can go to college one day and study photography. He loves to shoot things. One day, in the middle of a shoot, he was interrupted. Rather rudely he thought. But something about this boy has stuck with him. He can’t get the boy in the sailboat out of his head. When he gets an invitation thrown at him, rather rudely again, he thought, he debates whether or not to go. But he has to. He can’t stop thinking about this boy. When he meets Walker, he thinks there’s no way they could have anything. Walker is so out of his league. But as they get to know each other, Walker has a secret of his own. He’s intersex. Micah was shocked at first, but immediately realized that part of Walker doesn’t matter to him. He still wants this boy. But Walker has some issues he has to overcome before he can be with Micah. If he can at all. Walker’s being pressured in ways Micah can’t imagine and Micah decides he will wait. The journey is hard but it will be ok. Because Walker is worth waiting for.

These two boys made an incredible journey. And as teenagers, there is SOOO much crap that they have to deal with already. But add being gay, and/or intersex to the mix and you have a recipe for super crap. Micah doesn’t know what to do with himself. He has so much he’s dealing with already. His mom still hangs on to his brother being gone, his parents divorced because of it, and Micah feels like he doesn’t add up. He feels like he’s not the son they want. He’s been hiding he’s gay because he’s terrified of what will happen. Some days he feels like he’d be better off not there. He hides behind his camera trying to find himself and his way of coping and surviving. When he meets Walker, Walker is like a breath of fresh air. But Walker is so out of his league. He’s made of money and Walker is struggling to get by. But Walker doesn’t have it easy either. He’s homeschooled so he doesn’t have any friends either. And those who want to be his friends just want to be because of his money. He is intersex. His sister and his cousin saw him naked and ridicule him over it. So he’s humiliated often. His mother wants him to be just so. And he’s struggling himself with who he is. He gets testosterone to be a guy. He feels he is a guy, but that other part of him is still there. He’s still part girl. He feels he has to test everyone to make sure he can trust someone before he gets to know them too much. And now he’s pretty sure he’s gay as well. He is really interested in Micah. He’s pretty sure Micah is in to him too. Both of these boys have to do a lot of soul searching. They have to decide who they want to be and how they want to be. They have to make decisions that would scare most adults. But I love these boys so much. Because both finally make a stand. They are who they are. And that’s all that matters.

This book makes you see things that you don’t often see. I think it’s more of the fact that people turn a blind eye to it so they don’t have to acknowledge it. And when they do, it’s usually not nice. I know it made me understand things a little better. But no matter what your sexuality is, everyone deserves love and to be loved. Period. I definitely recommend this book. It was so good. And hopefully it will open your eyes to things if they aren’t already.

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