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This is a scene I deleted/rewrote because in hindsight it didn’t seem appropriate for Cam and Ty to get their sexy on right after Cam’s traumatic nightmare. It’s still pretty hot, though, if I do say so myself… enjoy!

 

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Ty woke with a start at the jerky, erratic movements shaking the bed. Next to him, Cam thrashed in his sleep, caught in the throes of one of his nightmares. Sitting up, Ty ducked a flying fist and grabbed Cam’s arm by the wrist.

 

“Cam!” He shook his shoulder. “Cam! Wake up!” He shook it a little harder.

 

“Ty!” Cam sat up with a jolt, wide-eyed and chest heaving. He scanned the room, frantic, until his eyes landed on Ty. “Ty, oh, god, Ty.”

 

Cam launched himself at Ty so forcefully that he just barely caught himself before they tumbled back onto the bed.

 

“Hey, yeah.” Ty held onto the trembling Cam, wrapped one arm around Cam’s shoulders, and held their foreheads together. “That’s me. I’m here.”

 

“You’re okay,” Cam whispered so quietly Ty almost didn’t hear him, despite their proximity.

 

“Yeah, I’m okay. I’m totally fine. It was all a dream.”

 

Cam pulled back a few inches and, even in the darkness of night, Ty could tell the wildness had faded from Cam’s eyes and in its place was something that tugged at his heart, demanding entrance past his walls.

 

He swallowed, but his mouth was dry, and he tightened his hold on Cam.

 

Cam trailed calloused fingers across Ty’s forehead, over his eyes and down his nose, they lingered on his cheekbones and pressed against his lips. Cam examined him with a thoroughness that turned him inside out.

 

There was only a moment of hesitation—long enough for Ty to see what Cam wanted, but not enough for him to question whether it was a good idea—before Cam leaned forward and pressed their lips together. Lightly at first, then with increasing hunger as his tongue slipped out to seek entrance into Ty’s mouth.

 

Cam pushed him back and Ty didn’t have the strength to resist, letting himself be pressed into the bed. Concern for Cam’s well being was momentarily overridden by the feeling of Cam’s weight on him, Cam’s thigh slipping between his own , the way Cam held onto his hip as if it belonged to him.

 

Ty roamed his hands across Cam’s back, one down to grasp Cam’s ass and pull them closer together, the other up to stroke the soft curly hairs at the nape of Cam’s neck. Cam’s beard scratched his lips, softer than it had been when they were in Kenya, sending a thrill through Ty as he moaned into their kiss.

 

Cam captured his hand and tilted his head so he could press a kiss to the middle of Ty’s palm. The gesture was a tug on Ty’s heart, and he could feel the walls giving.

 

“Ty, please.” The desperation in Cam’s voice was unmistakable.

 

“You just had a nightmare. I don’t think it’s a good idea.” His heart seized even as he said the words.

 

“Please.” Cam looked right at him, completely bare, holding nothing back, and Ty lost his breath at the naked vulnerability he was being offered. “I need you.”

 

Ty wasn’t a strong enough man to deny the request. Their lips found each other’s again and as their tongues met, it felt like so much more than a kiss, it felt like an exchange of life breath.

 

Ty tightened his arms around Cam, pulling them closer still, his leg hiked up over Cam’s hip. Cam said he needed this; in some deeply hidden part of his heart, Ty knew he needed this too.

 

He tugged at Cam’s t-shirt, and the kiss was broken momentarily for them to shed their clothes. Then they were back, and the feeling of skin gliding along his sent a rush of blood to Ty’s dick, where it rubbed up against Cam’s thigh.

 

Cam found his nipples and gave them an experimental pinch, sending Ty arching up into the pleasurable pain, and his dick pulsing as it thickened. Then Cam was moving, his lips and his beard trailing paths of wet heat and soft abrasion across his body, his neck, his shoulders, that dip at the base of his throat. Everywhere Cam went, he left a burning fire until Ty’s skin felt raw and sensitive to the touch.

 

At his nipples, Cam replaced his fingers with his mouth: first a wet lick, then a brush of beard, then more tongue, then the pinch of teeth. Over and over this went from one nipple to the other until Ty thought he might come from over stimulation.

 

“Cam, enough with my goddamn nipples and fuck me, already.”

 

Cam grinned at him, lips curling into an unholy smile, the wrinkles around his eyes deepening. Gone was all traces of the wild; Cam was with him now, completely, entirely. Ty felt himself get sucked into those eyes, deeper than he thought possible to be connected to another person.

 

“Condoms?”

 

Ty didn’t comprehend the word at first, so occupied he was with the depth of connection between them. After a few blinks, though, the full fallout of that word hit him.

 

“I didn’t pack any.” Ty felt like he was stealing ice cream from a child.

 

“Neither did I.” Cam dropped his head onto Ty’s chest, nuzzling until Ty was sure he’d end up with a patch of beard burn right over his sternum. He twisted his lips into a wry grin and dragged Cam up for kiss.

 

As their mouths connected, Ty pushed them over so their positions were reversed. Lying on top of Cam, he whispered against his mouth. “We don’t necessarily need condoms.”

 

Then he set to work, brushing his lips against Cam’s beard until they burned, licking at the salty skin along Cam’s neck, the strong bones on his clavicle and the little dip right at the shoulder joint. Cam gasped and writhed at the tease.

 

He scraped his fingers through the smattering of reddish brown chest hair. Encircling one nipple with his lips, he pinched at the other, enjoying how the little nubs perked under his attention. A little moan drew Ty’s attention upward, and he glanced through his lashes while his lips were still sealed around Cam’s sensitive skin.

 

Cam watched him through half-lidded eyes, bottom lip caught between his teeth. He looked so goddamn sexy that Ty lost track of what he was doing and bit down a little too hard. Shudders ran through Cam’s body, and Ty had press him down for fear of being thrown off. Okay, so maybe that wasn’t too hard.

 

He tried it again with the other nipple—same reaction. Shudders and panting and fingers tightening on his shoulders; Cam’s teeth dug into his lip so hard that Ty was afraid he might break skin. “Ty, please.”

 

Well, with begging like that, who could refuse? Ty moved lower, dipping his tongue into Cam’s belly button, which earned him a little squeal and a quickly sucked in abdomen. “Tickles,” came the explanation in a whisper.

 

Cam’s treasure trail was a sight to behold, starting thin just below his navel, then thickening as it drew near the prize. Ty licked and lapped at it, twirling the hairs around with his tongue and savoring the increasingly potent flavors that greeted him the lower he went.

 

Half way down, he ran into an obstacle, Cam’s hard dick, poking him in the chin. He breathed hot breaths across the hardened flesh and watched as it jumped as if seeking the heat of his mouth. Not content to give in that easily, Ty ran his lips along the length, marveling at the delicate skin, soft on his lips.

 

At the base, he continued onto Cam’s balls, large and heavy, and as he took each one into his mouth, he remembered the feeling of them slapping against the back of his thighs when Cam fucked him. Ty’s own dick twitched at the memory, and he reached down to give it a couple of comforting strokes.

 

Cam’s balls tasted musty, heavy with the scent of man as Ty ran his tongue over the thin skin and applied pressure to the testicles encased within. He let them fall out of his mouth, blew a stream of air across the wet skin, only to scoop them back up when he hadn’t gotten enough of them.

 

Cam only lasted two rounds of the teasing before he was growling Ty’s name, and his hands were groping for him. “Turn around.” Cam grunted. “You’re not the only one who can play dirty.”

 

Pushing the covers to the foot of the bed, Ty rotated himself so that his knees were planted on either side of Cam’s head, while he still had full access to the balls that he so enjoyed sucking on. A quick tug by Cam on his hips had him lowering himself until he felt his own balls engulfed in a wet furnace. Ty groaned, pressing his face into Cam’s crotch, taking a deep breath of the manliness emanating from Cam’s most intimate of body parts.

 

Opening his mouth, Ty planted open mouthed kisses along Cam’s cock, working his way up until he could run just the tip of his tongue around the head and into the slit. Then slowly, inch by inch, he filled his mouth with Cam. Below him, Cam mimicked him inch for inch, lick for lick. Ty was determined not to come first.

 

He sucked, hollowing out his cheeks as he took Cam deeper into this throat. Cam must have picked up on the unspoken challenge, because pressure around Ty’s cock increased as he felt Cam’s throat constrict around the sensitive head. They worked each other over, each intensifying the mutual blow jobs right before the other would follow.

 

Suddenly, unexpectedly, Ty felt Cam lift off his dick, the air feeling cool on his heated flesh. It only lasted a moment before he was back inside the furnace, the break too short to interrupt the building orgasm he felt at the base of his spine. As he slipped back into Cam’s throat, something poked at his hole. Oh god, Cam’s finger. He worked it inside, and Ty couldn’t help the moan that reverberated around the dick in his throat as he let himself be breached.

 

It didn’t take long after that. Cam’s finger became two fingers and they found Ty’s prostate with remarkable ease. A couple of stroke in his ass, and a couple of swallows around his dick and Ty was coming in heavy spurts that started at the base of his spine, shooting up his back until explosions fired off behind his eyes.

 

Distracted as he was by his own orgasm, he wasn’t prepared for the rush of come that fountained out of Cam’s dick. Sputtering, he pulled back to drawn in a lungful of air, then dove down to catch the rest. Salty sweetness exploded on his tongue.

 

When the last of their orgasms subsided, Ty collapsed to the side, face pressed against Cam’s thigh, his hand rising and falling with Cam’s breathing, his legs curled up and cramped against the headboard. They lay like that until the air grew cool around them and Cam gave him a quick tap on the hip.

 

With languid movements, Ty dragged himself around, pulling the covers with him until they lay side by side, facing one another—Cam’s hand on his waist, his hand stroking Cam’s beard—until sleep finally took them. This time, no nightmares interrupted their slumber until the sun rose on the horizon.

 

About Inside Darkness

 

He’s come in from the field, but the darkness has followed him home.

 

After a decade as an aid worker, Cameron Donnelly returns home jaded, tired, and with more than just a minor case of PTSD. Plagued by recurring nightmares but refusing to admit he has a problem, Cam quickly spirals into an alcohol-infused depression, and everyone around him is at a loss for how to help.

 

Journalist Tyler Ang met Cam on a reporting assignment in Kenya, and their first encounters were rife with hostility and sexual tension. Back in New York, their paths continually cross, and each time, Cam’s brokenness reminds Ty more and more of his own difficult childhood. Letting Cam in goes against Ty’s instinct to live life autonomously, but the damaged aid worker manages to sneak past his guard.

 

Their relationship is all sharp corners and rough edges, and just as they’re figuring out how to fit together, a life-threatening accident puts it all in jeopardy. If they want a future together, both will have to set aside their egos and learn to carry each other’s burdens.

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About Hudson Lin

 

Hudson Lin was raised by conservative immigrant parents and grew up straddling two cultures with often-times conflicting perspectives on life. Instead of conforming to either, she has sought to find a third way that brings together the positive elements of both.

 

Having spent much of her life on the outside looking in, Hudson likes to write about outsiders who fight to carve out their place in society, and overcome everyday challenges to find love and happily ever afters.

 

When not engrossed in a story, Hudson knits, drinks tea, and works the nine-to-five in the beautiful city of Toronto, Canada.

 

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